Peculiar Observation About Sleep - Daily blog #5

I'm laying down on bed, finally writting my "daily" blog which is not so daily anymore. Past few days, I haven't been writting blogs. No, not because I was busy, but because I was very unproductive throught all my days, and it's difficult to face my failure while typing these blogs, so I avoided writting blogs. Everyday I promised myself to skip the blog today and be productive tomorrow and write the blog tomorrow, so that I don't have to face my failures, the very thing the blog was supposed to do.. hold myself accountable. Anyway, I'm writting it today, as it was a better day than most. I watched 4 lectures, which isn't much but it's better than most of my days. Let's start summarising my day with a promise to be regular, no matter how unproductive my day is.

I woke up at 10:15. These days I've noticed that my sleep cycle has improved exponentially. I wake up at exact time I expect to wake up, sometimes even without an alarm. So that's an improvement. Also I've observed something peculiar about sleep a long time ago, which I don't know if I'll be able to articulate, but let's try. So I've noticed that whenever I change my sleep timing drastically, my sleep gets punctual, waking me up at exact time I'm supposed to wake up. For example during summer vacations I would get a habit of waking up at 11-12 in the morning. But when the school reopens, I would suddenly wake up at exactly the time I was supposed to, like 7 am. Even without my mother waking me up. I naturally woke up at 7 am in the morning, when I knew that I have to wake up. But this doesn't stay for long, after 3-4 days I lose this natural waking up schedule, and start being super sleepy in mornings. This is quite peculiar. I can wake up without an alarm at my desired time only and only if that desired time is not my usual time of waking up. I don't know if I got this through, I am not very good at articulation, and that's a major part of me writing these blogs. Anyway, so I woke up and brushed, read the front page of my newspaper, I didn't read newspaper thoroughly today. I had my tea and then sat to complete the lecture that i had started last day. I completed it and had my lunch. Sorry, I forgot to mention that I meditated for 20 minutes before studying. Today was open eye meditation practice, which I really don't like. It is difficult to see my visual field as just a collection of different shades of colour appearing in my consciousness. It is much easier to notice my thoughts and sounds than to notice my visual field. Sometimes I can even catch my thoughts just as they are arising, and even the sounds. But observing visual field is not my cup of tea, it's quote irritating. But I'm hoping to get better at it.
So, after I had my lunch I wasted some time in YouTube and then got back to study, and watched 2 hour botany lecture. I felt quite productive as it was only 4:30 and I had watched 2 lectures already. But this sense of achievement drowned me, as I "rewarded" myself with 30 minutes break, which eventually turned out to be 3 hours long break! At 7:30 I started my thermodynamics lecture of 2 hours and then had my dinner and watched some YouTube again. After an hour or so, I started my 4th lectures of the day, that of organic chemistry. It was about properties of alcohols. After its completion I felt a sense of "not having wasted my day again" and that feels good :)
After that I had to study some more but I ended up deciding to go to bed, and here I am.
Today's points would be 4×1.5 = 6
I hope to be regular now, writting blogs everyday.

Adios

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